Your Name Appears in the Book I'm Reading - Insomnia #11

your name appears in the book that i am reading
and i blink transfixed at what used to be so familiar
as it sits on the yellow page staring boldly at me, like you used to,
my heart beats falters like it used to
but your name does not blink like you used to


i close the book but i continue to read into past experiences together
your name is shifted violently from side to side, tossed and turned and shaken to relay its
secrets, in the turbulent waters of the mind
and i willingly drive in, drowning in memories
because i will save you, salvage what you were with my dying breath
for there are no other fishes in the sea,
compatible as you were with me


as i caress it with my tongue, whispering softly, reverently,
akin to a prayer
i open the book and stare
blatantly you stare back much like you used to
peering so closely your name slowly expands like you used to
promising I'd get used to...
this name, however familiar presents to me a blank slate
an unknown identity
i dont know who you are anymore
in any case i would not mind shedding this identity and following you on this yellow page
and in the world forever more
separated only by the conjunction "and"
immortalized on a yellow page and a green earth together
his identity remains unknown though....
however rest assure i will forever be the Jane to my John Doe.